Guest Author: Mavi
"Society – a savior hell!"
– E.M.. Ciaron
In a few months I'll be twenty-six. I've been wearing a headscarf for eleven years. In the last few years I have spent a lot of emotional and intellectual work on the headscarf. I wish I could say that this experience only covers personal reading, inquiries and experiences. It is ideal and I need such an individuality. But the truth is that the headscarf is devoted to the center of my life, and their endless headscarf is jammed by the delusions. But we were talking about it before normalization, did not we?
If it had been truly normalized for a woman to initiate / realize / realize the act of covering the veil, we still did not need to talk about it. In the street, on the subway, in the school, on the social media, we were not subjected to such judgments and impositions of "how to" the headscarf in our family. We do not regularly get out of the way to ensure that we do not conform to the standards of other people's testers; we were not seen down. If you have an Instagram account, if you are following a few obscure women and you are reading the comments on their shares, then why should I be talking about it?
Contrary to what is claimed, I do not see society as normalized nor feel liberated. For me, the headscarf struggle is a struggle I have to give to religious people now. Some religions seem to be paying the price of the trauma they suffered about the veil to the descendants after them. They expect that the difficulties they will take for living their beliefs will always be remembered and appreciated. But they do not understand the new generation's experiences and worries. That headscarved women do not come from a homogenous community; they can not accept (and may be!) that society is as diverse as (and may be!) any other category of society, such as life (and religious) life, political opinion, clothing style. They want every Muslim woman to be existential, the main focus of the fight against society (and "the neighborhood") is to become the headscarf, the only means of expressing her identity.
You can imagine how frustrating it all is. I started to spend a considerable part of my time thinking about how I would protect my personality, my choices, my Muslims, my lifestyle, my clothing style from harassment of Muslims. Or, if I wake up one morning, if I want to connect the headscarf in different ways, by making the account of the earthquakes that will occur in my life, by experiencing the worry … Impressing myself that I am brave enough to breathe. I'm not sure I want to wear a headscarf anymore. But I see that my elections will create, create and create disproportionate burdens in my life as a result.
By the expression of Feyza Akınerdem, will we ever have a publicity where we can live without having to pay huge amounts of our lives choices?
I must say that I do not see myself, neither the victim nor the victim, when I consider what I live. Life is much more complicated than that. I find and find the causes of the problems that I live in my own preferences, in their indirect consequences, in the environment, in society and in destiny simultaneously. I believe I can solve these problems. I believe in praying. But on the other hand I have lost my eyes in front of my eyes. At the very most, my belief that two people could actually hear each other was shaken. I do not need to tell "relatives" or foreigners themselves. This strengthened me on the one hand, on the other hand it made me numb. I do not listen to the criticism that I have earned in the past in hopes of making use of it. The sociality that represses me has left me no choice but to get ridiculous. I do not openly discuss my decisions.
I am a "educated", "very conscious" devout brothers who violate my individual field "for my good" and think that they are doing something heroic and doing it while doing it … I hope that someday you will be putting on the headscarf, you know. Good morality goes from good faith and modesty, not from formality. It is not self-respecting to see other virtues in other Muslims. Most Muslims should remember this. Most they forgot.
Finally, I am aware of where this article has placed its recent beliefs and headscarf debates. I am already asking those who will not find "promising" in writing content: are they experiencing hope or are they written? How do we normalize without talking?